{"id":273,"date":"2026-03-12T14:15:52","date_gmt":"2026-03-12T14:15:52","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/xiaotianle.top\/?p=273"},"modified":"2026-03-12T14:29:11","modified_gmt":"2026-03-12T14:29:11","slug":"mental-exhaustion","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/xiaotianle.top\/index.php\/2026\/03\/12\/mental-exhaustion\/","title":{"rendered":"Mental Exhaustion"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/assets-global.website-files.com\/5ed945986aedf80ff9c4bfd8\/6499a5c777318878142176f5_IngeNvden5_rlpwGfxAbqCfTplCxhs86JdjLn0N8xDz0Lw9NF8dZBFGIEYav3RQApfD1EBWS0bKpIMZGd0M9FFSz7K7KFiySVnUCMPT3Gc4WPb3JdxJpoRHBzahr6I1uU-rSdT9Kxxq2mA_eKp1Lqto.png\" alt=\"\"\/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>School dorm lights are off, but my phone glows under the blanket. Rugby bruises throb from afternoon training\u2014coach screaming about commitment while I nod like I\u2019ve got it together. Now the brain won\u2019t shut up. Replays every missed tackle, every half-assed TOK comment in class today. \u201cWhy didn\u2019t I speak up?\u201d \u201cCaptain should be better.\u201d Then it spirals: uni apps, predicted grades slipping, what if I bomb the EE? What if the team loses because I\u2019m distracted? Round and round, no exit. Energy drains without moving a muscle. Body\u2019s here in the bunk, mind\u2019s already run a marathon through worst-case scenarios.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Feels stupid. I\u2019m not sick, not injured bad, just\u2026 tired in a way sleep won\u2019t fix. Overthinking eats hours I should spend reviewing notes or stretching. Instead I lie here, heart racing over nothing concrete. Friends in the group chat post memes about \u201clie flat,\u201d but I can\u2019t even do that right\u2014guilt for not grinding harder kicks in. Perfect little loop: think too much \u2192 feel drained \u2192 think about why I\u2019m drained \u2192 more drain.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>One less loop tonight. One more breath.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>School dorm lights are off, but my phone glows under the blanket. Rugby bruises throb from afternoon training\u2014coach screaming about commitment while I nod like I\u2019ve got it together. Now the brain won\u2019t shut up. Replays every missed tackle, every half-assed TOK comment in class today. \u201cWhy didn\u2019t I speak up?\u201d \u201cCaptain should be better.\u201d [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-273","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-journal"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/xiaotianle.top\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/273","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/xiaotianle.top\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/xiaotianle.top\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xiaotianle.top\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xiaotianle.top\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=273"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/xiaotianle.top\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/273\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":278,"href":"https:\/\/xiaotianle.top\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/273\/revisions\/278"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/xiaotianle.top\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=273"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xiaotianle.top\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=273"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xiaotianle.top\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=273"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}